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THE CHARACTER
Character Name: Jonathan (John) Murphy
Series: The 100
Canon Point: Post Season 4
Character Age: 18
Background: Here
Personality: Murphy’s an abrasive person. He doesn’t get along well with most people, and this has as much to do with his own inability to trust and connect with most people, as it does with his outwardly aggressiveness and false bravado. Still, barring the right air of hostility, Murphy is more than keep his head down in favour of survival than to outwardly lash out at those around him. There are few times in his life where Murphy likes to draw the attention in the room to himself, because the times were few that this ended well for him.
He often shirks authority, but recognizes power when it can make or break him. This can be seen as both strength and weakness, depending on the tone of the situation. Murphy is hostile towards authority figures in his life, like government representatives, or those that he feels embody all that the government stands for; but at the same time he’s willing to play attack-dog for people that he feels are trying to change the system. He’s willing to co-operate with people that he feels will upheave the system and change it in a way that benefits people from his walk of life; i.e. the kind of person that has a difficult time getting a leg up in life. As someone who was raised his entire life to think that he was expendable, Murphy naturally gravitates towards those that he feels will help him survive in the long run.
Capable of taking a few punches, Murphy’s more likely to attempt to submit in a high tension situation, but when his buttons are pushed, or he feels that he’s been suitably wronged, he can hold a terrible grudge. When Murphy holds a grudge, it tends to blind him to reason, and he sees nothing else besides the end goal of achieving the revenge that he desires. This trait was especially prevalent in his early days on Earth, when the delinquents tried to hang him for a crime that he did not commit, and then when he was subsequently banished from the makeshift drop-ship settlement for attempting to exact his revenge on the real culprit. He’s been known to disregard the safety of others while seeking his revenge.
Despite his quick temper and long-lived grudges, Murphy does have a moral compass underneath his rough and abrasive exterior. Although this is one of his strengths, Murphy may actually view it more as a weakness, as it can often jeopardize his mission to survive. When not blinded by revenge, he does not believe in the senseless suffering of innocent people. He is empathetic towards his fellow outcast and downtrodden individual, often going out of his way to help them or ensure their safety. Despite having blood on his hands, Murphy doesn’t allow this to dictate how he treats the people around him who have done him no harm. Murphy has even shown remorse, when he apologized without prompt to Raven, whom he injured permanently on his path to revenge in the past.
Above all, Murphy’s key motivation is survival. Although in the past this has been derailed in an attempt to seek revenge against wrongs done to him, he has managed to survive a hostile environment on Earth despite having no official loyalty to either the Sky People (to which he originally owes affiliation), or the Grounders (to which he has begrudgingly allied with in the past). In Murphy’s eyes, it does not matter where a person was born, where they call home, or whom they call their People, he will stick close to them if they have something that they can offer him. He is resourceful in that he can often make himself appear useful, even in dire situations that may mean life or death to Murphy.
To this end, Murphy has a difficult time finding genuine connection with people. He does not handle small talk well, as he often feels that he has to carefully consider his words, so that he does not say the wrong thing and wind up having himself punished, or worse yet, killed. This could be because of a long history of abuse, which resulted in him he often viewing people as things, either as a way for him to get ahead in the game of life, or a stepping-stone to overcome, Murphy rarely has time or wants to open himself up enough to really connect with people. Despite this, he is capable of human connection, friendship, and even love. Although his close social circle is currently limited to one, a young Grounder named Emori, this demonstrates that Murphy capable of opening up to someone, even maintaining a relationship with her that he was never able to achieve with anyone from the Ark, or other Grounders on Earth.
Regarding his “people,” Murphy has a complicated relationship with them. In the beginning of his time spent on Earth, he pledged loyalty to Bellamy Blake, because, according to him at the man, the teenagers’ cast onto earth should be able to do “whatever the hell we want.” Bellamy was a prime example of the kind of authority that Murphy took advantage of, because it provided a direct advantage to him. While acting as Bellamy’s attack dog, the other kids were afraid of him, or at least nervous to act around him, and Murphy was free to get away with some… rather questionable actions. It was these questionable actions that would ultimately cost him his place at camp, and Bellamy would be the driving force behind his attempted execution and his eventual exile. Because of this, Murphy held a terrible grudge against Bellamy, to the point that he even tried to kill him (he wanted him to hang, so that Bellamy could feel that same suffocating feeling of your throat collapsing and the air struggling to reach your lungs). A few months later would show a shift in Murphy’s emotions, a shift away from cold, hard revenge, when he saved Bellamy from falling to his death off the side of a cliff, when it wasn’t that long ago that Murphy tried to hang him with the very seatbelt that he was using to keep the man steady.
During the time that Murphy sought revenge against those that hurt him, he did perhaps the one thing that he regrets most in his life so far. He hurt Raven in his attempt to reach Bellamy, almost paralyzing her with a stray bullet, an innocent life that just happened to be in his way on his path toward destruction. Although he didn’t broach an apology immediately, it was a guilt that he carried with himself throughout his time on the ground, until he could bring himself to apologize to Raven long after the incident occurred. Despite his ability to kill, Murphy does not believe in harming the innocent, and the weight of Raven’s injury was a heavy burden on his shoulders for a long time.
Monty, Harper and Echo are important to him purely based on their importance to Bellamy and the other Sky People. Due to Murphy’s previous actions against his own people, he was often outcast, and spent more time away from the dropship and the Ark than he did being welcomed into the community. Because of this, he did not get a chance to form a lasting bond with Monty and Harper the same way that Bellamy and the others did. He is observant enough to know how Bellamy feels about “his people,” and the lengths that he would go to protect “his people,” like Monty and Harper, and it’s always better to play on the safe side when your survival is at stake.
Murphy took a particular liking to Emori when they met crossing the desert in search of the City of Light. Although their relationship started off a bit rocky, Murphy felt a connection with her instantly based on the fact that both of them, for one reason or another, were considered social outcasts from those that would be consider “their people;” Murphy from the Sky People, and Emori from the Grounders. He did not bat an eyelash at the physical deformity that caused Emori to be outcast from her people, and even attempted to make her feel about it all by telling her that it “looked badass.” Over time, Murphy and Emori would form a tight bond over their outcast nature and ability to survive, often concocting plans together in secret in order to ensure that both would survive the harsh realities that awaited them on Earth and beyond.
Inventory: Considering he was jettisoned quite suddenly and without warning into space at the end of season 4, he would arrive with little besides the clothes on his back; personal items were a luxury that few from the ark were able to have, and murphy wasn’t from the class that was able to have them (even before he was arrested).